Uni So Far

This is going to be a REALLY long post, just a warning haha.
I haven't really been planning on doing a blog post about uni because it is something that I hate and it actually embarrasses me the fact I have had such a disaster with it.  But today it is just really bothering me so I felt like I would write about it to try and make me feel better.  I just have to remind my self that I couldn't help being ill and its not my fault (as everyone is constantly telling me)

So.  Lets go right back to when I was in year 13.  My school was one of those ones that pushed us into it.  It was either uni or nothing.  I never ever wanted to go to uni, but when I had my school constantly talking about how good it was and that you need it etc, I kind of felt I had no choice.  So here we are now, 3 years down the line and I'm not even in second year.

The idea of uni did eventually grow on me and by the time it came for me to move out of home and to uni I was looking forward to it.  Nervous as hell, but a little excited.  Now here is where it all goes wrong haha.

Things started off alright.  I got on with my flat mates for about the first month or so, but then we all started to not get along.  I'm mainly talking about 2 of them really.  I had another flat mate who I got on SO well with and I always knew that he was there for me if I needed him and we were really close.

However, I suddenly started feeling absolutely awful.  I was missing most of my lectures, staying in bed and I was on the phone to my mum most of the time.  We didn't know what was happening to me because I had never felt like this before.  I had only ever had anxiety, never depression.  So off we went to the Doctors where she diagnosed me with depression.  Long story short, I couldn't find the right medication for me, I felt awful 24/7 and ended up basically leaving my first year at uni by February.

That left me with having to do my first year again in September (when I should have been in second year) things were all going okish.  Better than the year before, anyway.  Then my Grandad became ill towards the end of the year and things became hard again.  I passed the year but I was no where near ready to go back to uni in September.

It was decided that I would have a sort of year out.  I say sort of because everyone knew that if I had a full on year out of uni there was no way I would ever go back.  It was worked out for me to do a few bits of work from the year before which I struggled with so then I would find it easier in the second year.  ANYWAY, I've finished that now and I'm going into year 2 in September.

The reason for me suddenly deciding to write all this and share it is because I just feel so crap about it all right now.  All the people I know from my first first year are leaving.  I'm seeing all these posts like "finished my degree" "Can't wait to graduate" and it just sucks so much that I should be leaving right now but because uni has been so crap and I ended up messing it all up, I'm not and I'm stuck there for another TWO years.  Also one of my closest friends at uni is leaving this year which means I won't get to see her as much next year and that is horrible to think about!

Anyway sorry this is such a long post and if you're still reading, I applaud you haha.  I just felt like I needed to write it out somewhere and that is what I use my blog for!

The next post will be more like my usual ones :)

Nails Inc Paint Can | Review

I always love buying new nail varnish, I definitely own too many! So when I saw the Nails Inc Pain Can (here) I decided I had to get it.  I'd heard about it ages ago and as I'm so impatient when painting my nails I thought this would be perfect for me. 

There are 6 shades to pick from and I went with Porchester Square.  I decided not to get the base and top coat as I have one from Barry M which I love! I was so excited to try this so when I got home I applied my base coat, waited for it to dry and then went ahead and put the nail polish on. 

I hated it, haha.  I have no idea if its just me but it looked awful.  It was uneven and just did not look nice.  When I bought it the lady said it should give me a sort of airbrush effect, but that is definitely not what I got! I waited for the first coat to dry and then put another on in the hope that would fix it.  It didn't. Anyway, I put the top coat on and waited for it all to dry so I could wash off the excess around the nails.  

I thought this would be really easy and the nail varnish would just wash away.  Nope.  I was basically scrubbing my hands for half an hour and there was still some nail varnish left on my skin.

Eventually it all came off but then within about a day, my nails were already chipping so I just decided to take it all off because, well, my nails just looked horrendous really. 

I've never been so disappointed in a product! It is definitely more hassle than its worth.  I'm not sure if its just me that this has happened to, but either way, I won't be purchasing this again.  Its just so messy and takes so much longer than normal nail varnish.

Let me know if any of you have tried the Nails Inc Paint Can and how you found it!